i won't work towards my dream half heartedly anymore.
i won't give half my attention.
i'll give all.
i'll do my very best with this second chance.
even if i fail, it's a success as i know i did my best.
thanks for those but it's not working.
thanks for telling me that i changed.

i realised it too but those actions just came naturally. i'll control.
control.
i want to be like back then when i was quiet and don't talk back.
when life was carefree and happy.
when i don't have to worry about being late.
when it isn't stressing me to set a good example for others.
when talking to strangers i'm cautious.
when i frown at others because they're rude.
is it too late?

i talk back.
i'm rude.
i speak my mind unconciously even if they hurt or irritate people.
i respect in my mind but my body does otherwise.
i act loud so i can click with people easily.
am i actually a loner just inside.
flashing fake smiles at others.
i can't change back.
it's too hard.



i can't speak my true mind other all.




/edit
great. i just realised that i left my pencil case in school/ lost my pencil case/ pencil case got stolen.