TANBEEYAN :D

YES

2009-12-05T15:52:00.001+08:00

yes tanbeeyan is fat and ugly and decided to stop posting in blogger already, so hop over to taintedtattoo.livejournal.com to stalk me thanks.

test post

2009-11-18T23:49:00.001+08:00

test post.

TESTING TESTING TESTING TESTING TESTING TESTING TESTING
I WANT TO GO AND SLEEP
TESTING TESTING TESTING TESTING TESTING TESTING TESTING.

tsk.

2009-11-09T20:19:00.002+08:00

i will be posting more frequently on my livejournal now.

Gosh, i miss NCO. never had any problems waking up early to go NCO, but it always occurs when going to school.

oh and when will guys ever turn a tiny lil bit more sensitive to have the slightest idea of how girls feel AND FUCKING SPEAK YOUR MIND WHEN YOU HAVE SOMETHING IN IT, OR IF YOU EVEN HAVE A MIND.

BEST FIVE DAYS.

2009-11-07T21:39:00.003+08:00

35th NCO Camp

Preparing to march pass

Practicing for display

Practicing march in

Practicing march in

Group pic with NCC

Adolphus, his friend, me :D

Me, Layting

Vivian, Shing Yee, me, Venus

Vivian, Shing Yee, me, Lay Ting, Siew Kim, Venus

Group pic with sir

Sir, me, Shing Yee, Vivan

Joel, Vivian, me, Shing Yee and sir.

Me, Shing Yee and Vivian

WOOHOO CAN YOU SEE ME?
I THINK I LOOK DAMN SKINNY HERE

Kope from people's facebook.
More at people's facebook.

SERIOUSLY. BEST. FIVE. DAYS. OF. MY. LIFE.
:)!!!!

Old old pictures

2009-10-15T21:28:00.001+08:00

NEW PHONE NEW PHONE!

2009-10-04T15:59:00.001+08:00

HAHAHA ITS PINK!
I LOVE THE CHIO KEYPAD.

>:(

2009-09-27T22:48:00.000+08:00

LAST TIME TO CHIONG BEFORE THE YEAR ENDS >:(

WEEEEEEEE

2009-09-20T23:25:00.003+08:00

THANKS TO THE AWESOME PEOPLE WHO WISHED ME

Hoiki
Marc
Ashley
Rayson
Benjamin
Chris
Yiling
Felicia
Angela
Yuxi
Adolphus
Yazid
Benchia
Aster
Jorim
Joel
Zuhao
Ms Tan
Bernadette
Debbie
Lester
Shila
Theresa
Elena
Janice
Julian
Chun Hong
Xin Hui
Trisha
Ms Chong
Kai Jie
Ariel
Jianhong
Delia
Mrs Vijay
Cally
AND SOME MORE OTHERS :D

THANKS FOR MAKING TAN BEE YAN A VERY HAPPY GIRL TODAY :D

Went to WWW today to celebrate!

WOOHOOOOOOOOO

2009-09-19T22:49:00.000+08:00

I HAVE ONE YEAR LESS TO LIVE NOW :(

HAHAHAHA WEEE I SHALL BE THE 3RD PERSON TO WISH ME A HAPPY EARLY BIRTHDAY FAT PIG.

LONG TIME NO POST :O

2009-09-17T22:38:00.000+08:00

TAN BEE YAN IS GOING OLD SOON :(

Bugis AND THE AWESOME STAYOVER AT HOIKI'S HAHAHAHA.

2009-09-13T22:25:00.007+08:00

Bugis on i-forgot-the-date-because-i-see-them-everyday with Hoiki and Peizhang~~!

the cool pikachu game thing at BHG

walked around like crazy people doing crazy things. I REALLY THINK I CAN FIT INTO THE SNOW WHITE DRESS LOR. =_=

THEN ON FRIDAY,
BEEYAN TAN AND THE AWESUM STAYOVERZ AT HOIKIZ

went to her house in the morning at around 11.30am with Marc. Peizhang came soon after i think. Hoiki treated us Mac :D

MY AWESOME HAPPY MEAL TOY HAHAHAHA
walau but i wanted the happy meal box a lot la

went to Comex at Suntec to get ear phones. I GOT RED MATCHING EARPHONES WITH MY MP3 :D while Marc got a blue one

:D :D :D :D :D

after buying the earphones, faster get out of suntec cause it's damn noisy, then went to action city to buy lanyard.

Back at Hoiki's with happy people playing or testing earphones

MATCHING LANYARDS HAHA

then suddenly we all got hungry and decided to cook fried rice.

Peizhang washing hands before cooking

wash riceeeeee

frying garlic

END PRODUCT HAHAHAHA

complimentary drink

THIS IS THE EVIDENCE THAT MY COOKING IS EDIBLE!

then later Marc and Peizhang left so Hoiki and I set the beds and slack by irritating people online

my blanket of 2 nights

Talk crap and rubbish and finally slept at 2 plus =_=
Woke up at 8+ cause not used to her bed, smsed then slept again. then at 10, "OPEN YOUR EYES, OPEN YOUR MINDS, WE ARE THE WINX~" then me and Hoiki woke up =.=

scrambled eggs + cheezeeee

then Rayson came then we all left for Tampines Mart to go my house for mahjong.

SEE BENJAMIN CUT HAIR SO CUTE RIGHT HAHAHA

So Marc finally learnt how to play mahjong while Hoiki still remains relatively clueless. Had my mum's fried rice for lunch. THIS IS PROFESSIONAL FRIED RICE OKAY. Hoiki keep on koping my pillow :(

At around 6, we went to Shop n Save to buy ingredient's for dinner (fried rice -_-) then 28ed to Hoiki's house with everybody.

mario kart-ing like usual

BENJAMIN SO CUTE RIGHT HAHAHAHA

Then slacked till 10+ then Benjamin and Peizhang went home, then at 11 plus Marc and Rayson went home. Then Hoiki and I watched Paris and Milan on youtube till 1+ then finally decided to sleep.

This morning at 9.50am, woke up by my annoying alarm again. Then right after i off-ed the alarm, Marc called and said he's reaching in 5 mins with 6 eggs for our breakfast. Then had scrambled eggs + cheese for breakfast again. Then slacked at Hoiki's room till 2 plus then went to Marc's house for lunch and guitar hero, then finally went for Pepper Lunch with Hoiki at CS. ran around toyrus after that searching for grammatical errors on the packaging all this, then went home at 9.

old updates, IT'S SEPTEMBER ALREADY :D

2009-09-09T11:42:00.000+08:00

i think my body has something for going down the wrong escalator =.=

sunday went to Marc's with Yuxi and his friend. Played GH till late then had dinner with Marc and Hoiki at Frolick. I can't remember what i did on monday. If i not wrong, auditioned with Chris and Chengting. Then on Tuesday, went over to Hoiki's with Rayson. Marc joined us later when he finally decided to come after watching movie with his secret lover.

OKAY I JUST REMEMBERED WHAT I DID ON MONDAY! HAD SPA PRACTICE! then went home to audition =.=

attack of the seals

attack of the vegetables

ATTACK OF MOO MOO :D

THE LOVE OF LEMON HAHA

2009-09-06T23:09:00.001+08:00

steamboat@felicia's + guitar hero@marc's

2009-09-05T09:50:00.003+08:00

had cross country in the morning, then went back home to change then met up with Hoiki and Rayson at Pasir Ris inter. Went to west plaza to meet up with Felicia, Ashley, Chris, Jorim, Vanessa, Junhan and Remus. Then went to Felicia's house. Prepared the stuffs then Vincent, Marcus and Jianyou came.

cleaned up then went to Marc's with Hoiki, Rayson, Vincent and Marcus

:D

2009-09-01T21:39:00.004+08:00

played audition with Hoiki this morning. FINALLY HACKED INTO MY MAIN ACCOUNT Y_Y

went to Rayson's yesterday with Hoiki, Benjamin and Chris.

MOO MOO!
the professional bitch in seducing teenage boys

Moo moo paying a lot of attention to chrisng

i hope i can score well this common tests cause i really really really put in a lot of effort in studying compared to the previous tests.

few updates

2009-08-30T16:27:00.002+08:00

few updates, friday Hoiki's with Marc, Rayson and Chris
Saturday Marc's with Hoiki, then Rayson's, then dinner at Subway.
Sunday White sands! :D

hiatus my foot.

2009-08-26T20:24:00.002+08:00

what's this?

TAN BEE YAN'S HEADPHONE POUCH! :D

was on the bus home from Hoiki's house yesterday and heard a girl blasting inuyasha songs. suddenly got addicted and filled my mp3 with them.

now tanbeeyan is really on a hiatus.

currently feel terrible. headache and nausea. 4 more tasks to go.

hiatus

2009-08-25T21:34:00.002+08:00

tanbeeyan is going to go on a hiatus for common tests.

don't want to fail anything.
want to get the shit out of maths remedial.
a1 for a maths
a1 for e maths
pass chemistry
b3 for physics
b3 for biology
b3 for humanities
b4 english
pass chinese

bored

2009-08-23T00:10:00.000+08:00

i hate doing the reading tasks.

studying at marine parade tomorrowwwwww!

:(

2009-08-21T22:04:00.003+08:00

after school had chemistry, then ran to band store for stock check. helped out with the library until completed everything, then went over to Hoiki's with Rayson and Chris.

pretty for a condemned

not so serious faces

craving badly for subway :(((((((((((((

MAHJONG!

2009-08-19T21:17:00.002+08:00

cause mahjong papers shouldn't be called mahjong paper when there isn't mahjong tiles present!

as usual, the obedient tanbeeyan is being a good girl today :D don't know why but recently i damn goong. like seriously very very very goong.

EDELWEIS

2009-08-18T22:09:00.003+08:00

edelweis, edelweis, every morning you greet me

omg this song stuck in my head after Marc and Vincent keep on singing it during English =_=

speaking of English, I JUST REALISED THAT I HAVEN'T DO MY SITUATIONAL WRITING! ~_~ supposed to have breakfast with Hoiki, Marc and Rayson this morning but i woke up late so in the end i slept all the way till 7.40 or so. After school had band, then went homeeeee.

and if you're wondering why i put a picture of a rose when it's more suitable to put a picture of a edelweis, it's because i can't find a nice picture of edelweis

quick update

2009-08-17T19:55:00.004+08:00

quick update on pictures before i chiong zuo wen.

went over to Marc's yesterday to ~~play~~ do homework.

Hoiki

Marc

Marc

Hoiki, Benjamin

Hoiki, Rayson, Marc

urine, subway, hoiki's

2009-08-14T22:43:00.002+08:00

bio practical today. was given three samples of urine, A smelled like chicken essence, B smelled like apple juice, C smelled like plain water with coloring. please don't tell me they are really urine cause i practically put my nose into the cup to convince myself that they are not urine. :(

after school, went to Tampines Mart with Hoiki, Yuxi, Rayson and Chris for lunch. Then went to my house (since Hoiki wants haha) to slack while I bathe. Then went over to Hoiki's. Marc came after his choir with SUBWAY HAHA :D

Standard game at Hoiki's

No more serious faces ~_~

oh ya i did a stupid thing today.

Marc: Daisy is who lai de?
Beeyan: Princess lor
Marc: King Boo leh?
Beeyan: From bowser's castle one
Marc: Donkey kong is what leh?
Beeyan: DONKEY LA THEN?

and i didn't realise what i meant until they stopped laughing. when they were laughing i was like "donkey what. very funny meh" until i realised that it's actually a gorilla =_=

ehhh.

2009-08-13T22:46:00.001+08:00

am feeling weird, cold, powerless, tired, lousy, crappy.

and most importantly,

worried.

:(

2009-08-12T21:57:00.002+08:00

Everyone in the apartment complex I lived in knew who Ugly was. Ugly was the resident tomcat. Ugly loved three things in this world: Fighting, eating garbage, and shall we say, love.

The combination of these things combined with a life spent outside had their effect on Ugly. To start with, he had only one eye, and where the other should have been was a gaping hold. He was also missing his ear on the same side, his left foot has appeared to have been badly broken at one time, and had healed at an unnatural angle, making him look like he was always turning the corner. His tail has long since been lost, leaving only the smallest stub, which he would constantly jerk and twitch.

Ugly would have been a dark gray tabby striped - type, except for the sores covering his head, neck, even hsi shoulders with thick, yellowing scabs. Everything someone saw Ugly there was the same reaction. "That's one UGLY cat!"

All the children were warned not to touch him, the adults threw rocks at him, hosed him down, squirted him when he tried to come in their homes, or shut his paws in the door when he would not leave.

Ugly always had the same reaction. If you turned the hose on him, he would stand there, getting soaked until you gave up and quit. If you threw things at him, he would curl his lanky body around feet in forgiveness. Whenever he spied children, he would come running meowing frantically and bump his head against their hands, begging for their love. If you ever picked him up, he would immediately begin suckling on your shirt, earrings, whatever he could find.

One day Ugly shared his love with the neighbors huskies. They did not respond kindly, and Ugly was badly mauled. From my apartment I could hear his screams, and I tried to rush to his aid. By the time I got to where he was laying, it was apparent Ugly's sad life was almost at an end.

Ugly lay in a wet circle, his back legs and lower back twisted grossly out of shape, a gaping tear in the white strip of fur that ran down his front. As I picked him up and tried to carry him home I could hear him wheezing and gasping, and could feel him struggling. I must be hurting him terribly I thought.

Then I felt a familiar tugging, sucking sensation on my ear. Ugly, in so much pain, suffering and obviously dying was trying to suckle my ear. I pulled him closer to my, and he bumped the palm of my hand with his head, then he turned his one golden eye towards me, and I could hear the distinct sound of purring. Even in the greatest pain, that ugly battled - scarred cat was asking only for a little affection, perhaps some compassion.

At that moment I thought Ugly was the most beautiful, loving creature I had ever seen. Never once did he try to bite or scratch me, or even try to get away from me, or struggle in any way. Ugly just looked up at me completely trusting in me to relieve his pain.

Ugly died in my arms before I could get inside, but I sat and held him for a long time afterwards, thinking about how one scarred, deformed little stray could so alter my opinion about what it means to have true pureness of spirit, to love so totally and truly. Ugly taught me more about giving and compassion than a thousand books, lectures, or talk show specials ever could, and for that I will always be thankful.

He had been scarred on the outside, but I was scarred on the inside, and it was time for me to move on and learn to love truly and deeply. To give my total to those I care for.

Many people want to be richer, more successful, well liked, beautiful, but for me, I will always try to be Ugly.

when you are bored in class

2009-08-12T19:37:00.003+08:00

when you are bored in class and have a nice person beside you to disturb,

Sad

HAPPY!

Marc is very bad

HAPPY WITH MAKE UP!

And even more vandalizing

developed photos doneeeee!

OMG :D

2009-08-11T19:56:00.001+08:00

OMG GOT METEOR SHOWER! WHO WANT TO WATCH (if can see in singapore)?

http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/science/nature/8193769.stm

quizxzxzxz

2009-08-10T18:01:00.000+08:00

1. You are walking in the woods. You are not alone. Who’s with you?
Him

2. You are walking in the woods. You see an animal. What kind of animal?
Cat

3. What interaction takes place between you and the animal?
Go pat the cat

( click for quizzz :D )

ps. the link links to my LJ.

homework and tm

2009-08-09T22:02:00.003+08:00

went over to Marc's just now to do homework. Was doing homework in the attic (damn cool) while he had his tuition. After his tuition he came up with his lappy and homework.

Carpet-ed floor and homework

Diligently copying MY homework

went to TM to kill time and hunt for a bagpack, then went home at around 8.45 or so. We took the pledge in comic connection at 8.22pm. Such nice singaporeans rightttt.

rayson's house, vivo city, china town, bugis, then finally marc's

2009-08-08T19:51:00.014+08:00

so long never post, but many many many things happened. so pictures will compensate for the many days of no postsssss

Yesterday (07AUGUST2009)

Woke at 5am. Bathe, tie hair and reach school at 6.15am. Set up instrument, carried one timpani down with Genevieve, then carry 3 chairs, then assembled downstairs for the performance. Actually was supposed to play both Majulah Singapura and School song, but then suddenly change to Majulah Singapura only. Then when we were going to play, the recording of Majulah Singapura started to play from the speakers then everyone's face were like O_O? then after that sang the national day songs while band just stand there and pose, then change to play School song at the end.

After school went to Rayson's house with Hoiki to kill time till afternoon.

MOO MOOOOO

:D :D :D

:D :D :D

After slacking till around 12, i went back home while Hoiki and Rayson go eat lunch. Then at around 2.30, received a call from Marc then i chiong to bathe, change and walk to Yuxi's house. In the end Yuxi haven't even bathe and was watching television while eating popcorn in boxers. =_= Stayed downstairs cause I don't want to go up so called them to come down since we need to chiong to vivo to meet up with the others. THANK GOD I DIDN'T WENT UP CAUSE MARC WAS COMPLAINING ABOUT YUXI WATCHING TELEVISION AND ANNOYING HIM WITH A TOWEL WRAPPED AROUND HIM HAHA.

Chionged to take MRT to vivo to meet up with Hoiki and Rayson. I swear on the MRT Yuxi was damn annoying and comparing who has a bigger fake underbite with Marc. Wapiangggggg so bad lor. Not like i want to have underbite one.

First stop, National Geographic museum. Walked around looking at random things, pictures, AND TOYS WITH OVERBITES >:(

group photo at a ridiculously overpriced mirror

Second stop, FOREVER 21! We were all going up the escalator when Hoiki suddenly say "beeyan, want go F21?" my eyes lighted up then i faster uturn to the going down escalator to go back to 1st floor to f21. Walked around and around, bought 2 hairbands and 2 pins, then off to next stop.

Third stop, TOY R US! Shortly after we left F21, went to find Debbie cause her family was there too. Then headed up to toyrus for crap.

I can feel the pain

Walked all around, see pokemon plushies, ben ten toys, soft toys, then we saw..

TRANSFORMERS!

then we turned around and saw many transformer masks, then we couldn't resist but..

HAHA.

that was probably the stupidest thing i did that day. but we're not in school uniform, nobody knows us and we just couldn't help it.

Forth stop, DAISO! Before daiso we went into a anime/game shop where there's a lot of toys then there Marc and Yuxi go about underbites =_= Debbie left to find her family. Then went to daiso! FOREVER $2!

Walking past the water pool thing at the rooftop to go to daiso with Marc and Yuxi. Hoiki, Rayson and Debbie don't want to wet their shoes.

In the water!
Me, Marc, Yuxi (clockwise from black skirt) They two want to blend into the national day crowd so they wore red. After a while of pain while stepping on the sharp floor barefooted, we reached daiso and..

HAPPY GIRL IS HAPPY CAUSE SHE FOUND LEMON! :D not only i hate my underbite, i hate my big nose now too. currently kiapping it with a peg HAHA.

Hoiki bought a stick with a sissors sign, Yuxi bought a stick with paper sign, while i bought a stick with the rock sign. Now I will always win Hoiki, who wins Yuxi, who wins me. After walking around and around, we got hungry so dinner at subwayyyyy! Bernadette and her mother came to chat for awhile before leaving.

Now i hate my fat face too.

After dinner, Marc had to leave for church so we went to MRT station to send him off, Yuxi left with his family, while Hoiki, Rayson and me went to Food Republic for their dinner (they didn't eat anything at subway) My headache started to get worse cause of lack of sleep so i slept there for awhile. Then finally went home after their dinner.

going home

Reached home, didn't bother to change or wash face, dropped on my mum's bed and slept. Woke up at 3am on my bed (i don't know why) to reply some smses, set alarm clock, wash face and brush teeth, then went back to sleep.

Today (08AUGUST2009)

Woke up at 8, chiong and met up at Tampines MRT platform with Rayson and Benjamin. Then met up with Hoiki at Kebangan, then met up with Marc, Yuxi, Debbie, Bernadette, Amanda and her mummy on the MRT. Went to China town for chinese project.

From left to right
Yuxi, Debbie, Amanda, Bernadette, Marc, Hoiki, Benjamin, me, Rayson

SENSUAL MASSAGE!

After taking some photos at the heritage center, we went to eat dessert at around 10 or 11 at one of the shops there.

Mango + pomelo dessert

Rayson's mango ice

finish!
oh ya that's the stick thing we bought at daiso yesterday.

Box Rayson! and Marc posing for the picture

Hoiki's sissors stick

Trying to be taller than Rayson

Got sian-ed liao

abishhhhhhhh

After slacking for quite a while, we split ways. Hoiki, Marc, Rayson, Benjamin and i went to bugis while the others had something else on. Took group photo at MRT station.

Left to right
Rayson, Benjamin, Hoiki ~~(haha look damn slutty in this picture)~~, Marc, me

Take picture again with the stick

had a lot of fun hitting others with the stick, punching people's cheek, eyes, nose, butt, waist, etc. Reached bugis, walked around Bugis Junction, Bugis street, then back to Bugis junction again. Went around hunting for a school bag for Marc but then couldn't find a nice one, then everyone got hungry again, so went to the food court for lunch.

Staring at blank space

with Marc's hat

Then after eating, we went to Iluma since they didn't go there before. Seriously if somebody falls down the ridiculously long escalator, the person will just keep on rolling and rolling without stopping. Went to Otaku house, Comic connection, then slacked at the metal bench thing that is seriously cold.

When walking down we saw this disturbing sign

I can feel the pain

After that MRT-ed to Marc's house for Guitar Hero with Hoiki and Rayson while Benjamin left. On the MRT everybody was laughing about how i lose my balance everytime the MRT moves or stops. >:(

While GH-ing Marc uploaded many unglam photos on facebook so when he went to remove his contacts, I was like

Beeyan: Should I take the chance to delete the pictures?
Hoiki: I think you should

Then I went to delete the photos. Then i made the lappy look like it was untouched, then with the contented face i went back to playing GH. Then when Marc came back into his room I was like "haha see i so smart, take the chance to delete the photos", while smiling to myself. Then he suddenly smile to himself and say

"my room not soundproof one leh"

HENG HE NEVER UPLOAD THE PICTURES UP AGAIN. If not i'm going to rip his hair out and pluck his eyelashes off one by one and extend them to mine.

National day tomorrow! Hoping to go out study or do homework, WITHOUT wearing red.

weeee

2009-08-06T21:38:00.002+08:00

after a few hours, LOWER WOODWIND'S DESIGN IS DONEEEE!

went our to Hoiki's yesterday with Rayson, Yiling and Chris. Mario kart the day awayyyyy :D

serious faces again

HAHA

2009-08-04T23:13:00.003+08:00

HAHAHA OMG FOR THE FIRST TIME IN YEARS, I STOOD ON THE BENCH (for one of the shots) FOR PHOTOTAKING! COME AND GONG XI ME NOW.

even though there were like many 160cm girls in class, I'M THE ONLY 160cm ONE STANDING WHILE THE OTHERS SAT DOWN. HAHAHAHAHA.

okay. i need to slap myself in case of karma.

Hoiki's

2009-08-03T20:42:00.002+08:00

after school went out with Hoiki, Marc and Delia (SEC 1 CLIQUE HAHA) to buy Jianyou's present! after walking around aimlessly, finally found a suitable present for him. Don't know why, but i keep on losing my concentration today. Nearly went up the wrong escalator twice, lost balance many many times.

Then we left to go to Hoiki's :D

Serious Marc, Delia and Hoiki.

Because they are playing the killer stageeeeee!

Left at around 6.30pm. Walked down the killer staircase, then at lvl 10 i cannot stand it liao. Headache like siao and feel quite nausea. Took lift down. Then went homeeeeeee :D

bugis

2009-08-02T23:17:00.003+08:00

bugis with mei yesterday.

~~spent $30 on arcade and trying to keep it from mummy.~~ :( walked around bugis junction a lot of times, trying to find a nice red shirt for band performance, then squeezed with the crowd at bugis street but still can't find any nice shirt.

went to iluma and that's where we spent all our money :( bought a rubberband with ribbon for me and a pencil box for mei. USING MY MONEY. SEE I AM A GOOD SISTER.

OVER YOU.

2009-08-02T13:58:00.002+08:00

Now that it's all said and done,
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

You took a hammer to these walls,
Dragged the memories down the hall,
Packed your bags and walked away.
There was nothing I could say.
And when you slammed the front door shut,
A lot of others opened up,
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
Well I'm putting my heart back together,
'Cause I got over you.
Well I got over you.
I got over you.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

spending my sunday alone, doing chinese and social studies. tanbeeyan is now a very obedient woman and is never never never going to get 5marks, nor fail my chemistry ever again!

hoiki's

2009-07-31T20:59:00.002+08:00

after extra lessons, went to T1 with Ashley to buy something, then to Hoiki's with Marc, Rayson and Chris!

Mario kart

Serious face

Serious face

Hoiki

Rayson and Hoiki

played till around 7pm, then left. Went to buy food with Marc and walked with him to his church before 28-ing home.

Wa on the bus got 3 mutt hor, KEEP ON SAYING MY FULL NAME SO LOUDLY THAT I CAN HEAR EVEN THOUGH I'M ON HEADPHONES LOR. SO IRRITATING. Took off my nametag after that and gave them a glare.

oh dear.

2009-07-30T20:53:00.000+08:00

MR LIM IS BACK :D
what more can i sayyyyyy?

FINALLY CAN JOIN TABLES AND TALK!
external neh
circumsization
bbt
gossip
diet
armpits
/coughhoikicough/
lemon
belated presents
AND CIRCUMSIZATION AGAIN

heeeeeee. can't believe i failed chemistry to miserably.

bbt after school today, followed by band. weekends are coming :D but my friday is taken away by bio :(

SAY YAY FOR SUBWAY!

2009-07-29T21:38:00.002+08:00

TAN BEE YAN IS NOW VERY HAPPY CAUSE SHE ATE SUBWAY!

Had dinner with Marc just now. The others couldn't make it.

Went subway first, but no seats so went to Sasa to restock my eyelid stickerzzzzz. Walked around and around and around before going back to subway to tabao and go open plaza eat. First time see subway so rude sia. What sub? Topping? Sauce leh? ~_~ AND I FORGOT TO SAY NO CHILLI AGAIN GRRRRRR. Had a hard time picking out the chillis after eating like a few. Then marc say "onions only" but got all except onion.

toppings that got digged out.

SUBWAY IS LOVEEEEEEEEE

Marc and his black headphonezzzz

After spending a longgggg time taking out the toppings and eating and watching MVs on Marc's ipod touch, walked around again looking for games to buy.

OH YES. Pretended to lose my phone. Marc smsed Yuxi using my phone saying "Excuse me, are you friends with the owner of this phone? i just happened to pick it up from the floor just now". Then YX replied yes then called Marc's phone. Then Marc cooked up some story then passed the phone to me. Then YX said he'll call my phone. Wa seriously we laugh like #@$@^ then YX called. Then in the end we couldn't resist it liao then laughed into the phone. Found out that YX is damn gullible, but can be mature also LOL.

Went home after Marc bought his Fruit Basket.

QUIZ :D

2009-07-28T21:15:00.003+08:00

Now, here's what you're supposed to do, and please do not spoil the fun. Copy and paste this into your notes, delete my answers, type in your answers and tag 20 of your friends here in facebook to answer this. Then see what happens.

if you a guy- post this as my kind of girl..
if your a girl- post it as my kind of boy..

1. Do you need him/her to be good looking?
Averageeee

2. Smart?
Smarter than me

3. Preferred age?
Same age? :/

4. Preferred height?
TALLER THAN ME THANKS

5. How about a sense of humour?
Yez pleaseee

6. How about piercings?
NOOOOOOO

7. Accepts you for who you are?
Yez please

8. Pink hair?
THANKS BUT NO THANKS.

9. Mushy or no?
No thankzzzz

10. Thin or fat?
~~FAT~~ cushiony or fatter than me.

11. Black, Brown or White (skin color)?
Whiteeeeee

12. Long hair or short hair?
SHORT HAIR ONLY THANKS.

13. Plastic or metal?
What?

14. Smells good?
Yez pleaseeee

15. Smoker?
No.

16. Drinker?
No.

17. Girl/Boy-next-door type?
:/

18. Muscular?
CUSHION CUSHION CUSHION CUSHION

19. Plays piano?
Nopezzzz

20. Plays bass and/or acoustic guitar?
YES PLEASE

21. Plays violin?
Nooooo

22. Sings very good?
No

23. Vain?
NO.

24. With glasses?
YES PLEASE :D

25. With braces?
No

26. Shy type?
NO.

27. Rebel or good boy/girl?
A little of both? :/

28. Active or passive?
No idea

29. Tight or bomb?
what?

30. Singer or dancer?
SINGER

31. Stunner?
huh?

32. Hiphop?
NO.

33. Earrings?
Nope

34. Mr/Ms. count-my-ex-girlfriends-until-you-drop?

._.

35. Dimples?
Bonus

36. Bookworm?
No

37. Mr/Ms. love letter?
No

38. Playful?
Maybe

39. Flirt?
NO.

40. Poem writer?
Bonus

41. Serious?
Depends

42. Campus crush?
huh?

43. Painter?
no thankzzzz

44. Religious?
no thankzzz

45. Someone who likes to tease people?
Depends

46. Computer games geek? Or internet freak?
NO THANKS.

47. Speaks 20 languages?
what the hell

48. Loyal or faithful?
bothzzzz

49. good kisser
=.=

50. loves children??
YEZ PLEASE

run run jump catch and shoooooooot

2009-07-27T18:54:00.005+08:00

FARGGGGGGG. I LOOK FAT AND UGLY WITH UNDERBITE >:(

hokay. had tchoukball for pe today. run run jump catch jump miss jump catch aim jump shoooooooot! after school went to help Mr Tang with the graphic calculator thing with Ashley, then went home instead of ikea with Marc and Ashley cause it's raining like crazy.

"eh don't like that leh. i scared leh"

2009-07-26T22:10:00.002+08:00

back from the most terrifying cycling experience =_= marc roller bladed while the others cycled. nearly crashed into a roller blader cause he suddenly lost balance in front of me and suddenly swerve into me. crashed yuxi twice. hit a pole once.

met at marc's house with yuxi to chiong guitar hero for a while before leaving for ECP. the chain dropped out twice on the way there. super super super super rusty and unreliable ~_~ but didn't die or anything.

reached ECP and met up with the others soon enough.

fell once when carrying the bike up the stairs of the underground pass. made yuxi carry it for me while marc just stare and laugh upstairs. fell another time when getting off the bike cause i couldn't feel my legs.

cycled around for about 2 hours before marc left with hoiki and rayson to lead them to his house by bus, while yuxi and i rode back to marc's house to meet with them. just nice when we reach, they just reach and marc's family just came home. all cram in the toilet wash face, wash leg, then guitar hero!

CYCLING

2009-07-26T11:03:00.002+08:00

cycling with Ashley, Hoiki, Marc, and many others later :D

hoiki's and bugis and choir performance

2009-07-25T20:00:00.003+08:00

i srewed up oral very very very badly.

yesterday after oral, went to side gate to wait for others to finish to go to hoiki's while Marc and Benjamin left for choir.

Then at the bus stop with Hoiki, Rayson and Chris, Yuxi suddenly left cause he want to play NF. So crapped on the MRT, dance sorry sorry whenever Hoiki said sorry, treat Hoiki bubbletea, then went to her house for some GH and Mario kart.

Soon Marc and Benjamin joined us, then we continued to play Mario kart. I SWEAR I AM A VERY GOOD DRIVER OKAY. NEXT TIME DON'T BE AFRAID TO SIT IN MY CAR. :)

guitar hero

Today had band in the morning, then ran home cause Ashley was rushing me. Walked around bugis street in circles and circles and circles, then bought 4 shirts. Went bugis junction pastamania for lunch, then MUJI for LEMON MARSHMELLOWS AHHHHHHH. IT'S LIKE IN PASTEL YELLOW FILLED WITH LEMONY THING INSIDE! Then went to National library for choir's performance.

then went back and go homeeeeeeee.

ahhhhhhh

2009-07-23T23:02:00.002+08:00

gogogoooooo

WEEKENDS ARE COMING BEEYAN, ARE YOU EXCITED?
EL oral tomorrow!
Bugis with Ashley (maybe) on Saturday!
Cycling with practically everybody on Sunday!

arghhhhhh

2009-07-22T23:27:00.003+08:00

give me a break seriously.

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something to share.

First, I was dying to finish my high school and start college
and then I was dying to finish college and start working.
Then I was dying to marry and have children
and then I was dying for my children to grow old enough
so i could go back to work.
But then I was dying to retire.
And now i am dying.

And suddenly I realised
I forgot to live.

To make money we lose our health,
and then to restore our health,
we lose our money.
We live as if we are never going to die,
and we die as if we never lived.

someone bring me to subway eat pleaseeeee :(

grrrr

2009-07-21T21:15:00.003+08:00

create a livejournal account and add taintedtattoo if you still want to follow my blog or read my private posts there.

quiz to kill time

2009-07-21T19:21:00.002+08:00

1. Your ex is on the side of the road, on fire. What do you do?
Go home pop champagne

2. Your best friend tells you she's pregnant. What is your reaction?
WHO'S ONE

3. When was the last time you wanted to punch someone in their face?
Just now

4. Congratulations! You just had a son. What's his name?
Clemon.

6. What are you craving for right now?
Nothing

7. What was the last thing you cried about?
During english. Laugh till cry cause of break dance kitty =_=

8. When you buy something and your change is a penny, do you keep it?
Yeah

9. What color is your tissue box?
Purple blue

10. Is there a ceiling fan in your room & if so does it have dust on it?
No ceiling fan

11. What is the last voice mail you received about?
None

12. Scariest thing you've experienced in the last year?
Dropping hair. Many many many hair.

13. Have you ever had a garage sale?
Nope

14. What is the last beverage you had?
Plain water

15. Are you happy right now?
Pissed.

16. Who came over last?
Ashley

17. Do you drink energy drinks?
Quit sweet drinks

18. Have your brothers or sisters ever told you that you were adopted?
Nope

19. Dark or light jeans?
Shorts FTW

20. What was the last movie you watched at home?
Transformers

21. What is in your pocket?
Coins and notes

25. When is your birthday?
2009

26.What are you going to do after this?
Waiting for the noisy people to come online

27. Who was the last person you went shopping with?
Marc

28. What about your favorite dessert?
THE TADPOLE JELLY COCKTAIL

29. Do you have the same name as one of your relatives?
Nope

30. Do you like pickles?
Nope

31. Is someone in love with you?
Doubt so

32. What color is your couch?
Colourful

33. Has anyone ever mistaken you for a family member?
Nope

34. Does someone like you right now?
Doubt so

35. Do you know anyone in jail/prison?
Nope

36. Who was the last person to send you a text message?
Wanlin

37. How many hours did you sleep for last night?
7

38. Do you swear at your parents?
Nope

39. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
Nope

40. What is the last thing you spent money on?
Chicken noodlezzzz (FIRST TIME I EAT IN CANTEEN SINCE SCHOOL REOPEN!)

41. Name one thing no one can ever change your mind about?
Heh. You'll know if you know me well enough.

42. What is the last thing you ate that had onions in it?
Subwayzzzz

43. Crunchy or Puffy Cheetos
No cheetos

44. Have you ever blocked someone from facebook?
Nope

45. Who was it?
-

46. Do you wear a name tag at work/school?
Name tag?

47. What color is your iPod?
No ipod. MP3 reddddd

48. What is your favorite key chain on your keys?
the bear with long body, hands and legs

50. If the last person you kissed said that you were the only one they wanted, would you believe them?
I don't want to marry Ashley's dog.

51. Do you believe that any of your ex-es think about you?
Nope

52. Would you date someone 8 years older than you?
Nope

53. What were you doing at 1am this morning?
Sleepingzzzz

54. Will your next kiss be a mistake?
If it's to another dog, yes.

55. Did the one person who hurt you the most in your life apologize?
Hah.

56. Do you know a secret about your ex and if he/she pisses you off will you tell?
Nope

57. What's with you and the last person you kissed?
No kisszzz

58. Have you ever had your heart broken? If so how many times? How did it feel?
Heh.

59. What time did you wake up this morning?
7am

60. What's on your bed right now?
Bolster, blanket, pillow

61. Are you someone who worries too often?
Depends

62. Do you like to cuddle/snuggle?
Yezzzzzz

64. What color is your hair?
Black

65. Honestly, if you could go back 1 month and change something would you?
Eat less

66. Is there anybody you wish you could be spending time with right now?
Yezzzz

67. Have you ever fallen asleep in someones arms?
Mummy's

68. Are you wasting your time on someone?
Nope

69. Are you excited about anything today?
No.

70. On average, what do you think you cry the most about?
Laugh till cry.

71. What does the newest text message in your inbox say?
"Yay thanks! :D"

73. Who are 5 people your last texts are from?
Wan Lin, Paul, Angela, Marc, Yuxi

74. Do you currently have a hickey?
=_=

75. Last person you texted?
Wanlin

76. Miss anyone?
:o?

77. Have you ever skipped class?
Nope

78. What's the longest you've ever talked on the phone?
Few hours

79. How many people are you texting?
Nonezzz

80. Do you have a friend you can tell stuff to and you're sure they won't tell?
Two or three.

81. Where was the last place you went?
Band room

82. Let's be honest, have you ever been played by someone?
No idea. Maybe.

83. Have you ever kissed anyone who's name started with a M?
Nopezzzzz

84. Who is the last person that called you and what did they say?
Ashley. Cyclingzzzz

85. Do you trust all your friends?
Lost faith after that incident.

86. Do you know anyone that smokes pot?
Nope

87. Are you usually wide awake in the morning?
Nope

88. If you could change your eye color what would it be?
Hazel

89. Do you dance in the car?
HOW YOU TELL ME.

90. Do you always answer your phone?
Yezzzz

91. Would you like to be in a relationship right now?
Depends

92. Who's hoodie did you wear last?
Mine i think.

93. Do you sleep on your stomach?
Nope

94. Is love really a beautiful thing?
Depends

95. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
Doubt so

96. Are you in a good mood right now?
No.

97. Is there a guy/girl that knows everything or mostly everything about you?
Yes

98. Do you think your last ex will eventually want to be with you again?
No exzzzz

99. Do you think you will be in a relationship three months from now?
Nope

100. How many people on your top friends have you slept in the same bed with?
None

101. Have you ever liked someone who treated you like crap?
Nopezzz

102. What are you listening to?
Dammit - Blink 182
KILLER GUITAR HERO SONGGGG

103. Is there a difference between the word 'best friend' and 'friend'?
To me no.

104. When is the last time someone of the opposite sex gave you a hug?
Few weeks ago?

105. Can you touch your toes?
Yezzzz

106. Do you have any interesting tattoos/piercings?
Dragon and phoenix on my back

107. What were you doing at midnight last night?
MSN and Facebook

108. What's your favorite season?
Winter and spring

109. Last thing you ate/drank?
Plain water

110. How many siblings do you have?
3

111. Needles aren't so horrible?
OF COURSE! If not how do you expect me to get that gigantic tattoo done

112. What time did you go to bed last night?
12.30am?

113. Have you ever made out in a bathroom?
No =_=

115. What is the last non-alcoholic beverage you had?
Plain water

116. Are you scared of spiders?
See the size first

117. Would you go back in time if you were given the chance?
To eat less

118. Ever been swimming in a lake or river?
Kota tinggi yezzz

119. Last person you drove with in a car?
Mummy, papa and mei

120. Who should start the kiss, the girl or the guy?
:o

121. What did you last buy?
Plain water during recess

122. What’s irritating you right now?
Many many many

123. What radio station(s) do you listen to?
None

124. Are you afraid of the dark?
Depends

125. Are you listening to music right now?
GEE GEE GEE GEE

126. Is there anyone you wish was still in your life?
No.

127. Do you get distracted easily?
Yezzz

128. Was this the best year of your life?
Maybe.

129. Who are your best friends?
Hmm.

130. What was going through your mind during your last kiss?
OMFG ITS A FEMALE DOG.

131. Is it easier to forgive or forget?
Neither

132. Do you flirt a lot?
No.

133. Would you live with someone without marrying them?
Yezzz

134. Have you ever had a dream about people you love dying?
Yezzzz

135. Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?
Doubt so

136. Who was the last person that made you feel safe?
:o

137. Have you ever liked someone so much that it hurts?
:o

138. Have you ever broken someone’s heart?
Nooooz

139. Do you believe that you are a good boyfriend or girlfriend?
:o

140. What did you do yesterday?
Nothingzzzzz

141. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?
Depends on what you did

142. What is stopping you from confessing to your crush?
:ooooooo

second post todayyyyz

2009-07-20T21:56:00.003+08:00

FINISHED STUDYING CHEMISTRY!
FEEL DAMN CAREFREE NOW.
BUT NOT CAREFREE TILL I WILL FORGET WHAT I STUDIED :D

god i hate rayson. i hate hoiki. i hate benjamin. i hate you all :(

hahaha

2009-07-20T15:51:00.003+08:00

facebook ads are weird

i feel damn disgusted after knowing what circumsize (sp?) is. omggggg marc why you tell meeeee

TIKO PEH FACEEEE

POST FIVE HUNDREDDDDDDDDD!

2009-07-19T13:33:00.006+08:00

god this blog is getting old.

and you know what, I'M DAMN HAPPY NOW CAUSE I FINISHED ALL MY HOMEWORK SO EARLY FOR THE FIRST TIME. Now i can laugh at people at night when they start chionging their homework.

maybe chionging GH at marc's later. (L> PEDDLER@@@@@@@@@@)
maybe staying at home to rot later.
maybe trying to change my hair parting later.
maybe trying to cut bangs again later.

ARE YOU EXCITED FOR BAND MY FELLOW BANDITS.

last week, sean helped be buy an egg sandwich during recess. i felt qutie cheated cause..

it's empty :(

but the bread still tastes nice.

oh yea. dissected goat's heart last thursday. felt sick the whole day after that cause my hand smelt weird.

SUPER WOMAN TO THE RESCUE

NO, NO, YES, YES AHAHAHHAHAHA
okay must slap myself cause later karma. :(

in the end didn't go over to marc's :/

:D, :), :l, :/, :(

2009-07-18T12:05:00.001+08:00

dying to go out :(

wall of text damage 999999999

2009-07-17T15:16:00.001+08:00

This is an award-winning story by an RGS girl in a Commonwealth competition

What the Modern Woman Wants
by Chong Wei-Zhen

The old woman sat in the backseat of the magenta
convertible as it careened down the highway, clutching
tightly to the plastic bag on her lap, afraid it may
be kidnapped by the wind. She was not used to such
speed, with trembling hands she pulled the seatbelt
tighter but was careful not to touch the patent
leather seats with her callused fingers, her daughter
had warned her not to dirty it, 'Fingerprints show
very clearly on white, Ma.'

Her daughter, Bee Choo, was driving and talking on her
sleek silver mobile phone using big words the old
woman could barely understand. 'Finance' 'Liquidation'
'Assets' 'Investments'... Her voice was crisp and
important and had an unfamiliar lilt to it. Her Bee
Choo sounded like one of those foreign girls on
television. She was speaking in an American accent.

The old lady clucked her tongue in disapproval.
'I absolutely cannot have this. We have to sell!' Her
daughter exclaimed agitatedly as she stepped on the accelerator; her
perfectly manicured fingernails gripping onto the steering wheel in
irritation.

'I can't DEAL with this anymore!' she yelled as she
clicked the phone shut and hurled it angrily toward
the backseat.
The mobile phone hit the old woman on the forehead and
nestled soundlessly into her lap. She calmly picked it
up and handed it to her daughter.

'Sorry, Ma,' she said, losing the American pretence
and switching to Mandarin. 'I have a big client in
America. There have been a lot of problems.'
The old lady nodded knowingly. Her daughter was big
and important.

Bee Choo stared at her mother from the rear view
window, wondering what she was thinking. Her mother's
wrinkled countenance always carried the same cryptic
look.

The phone began to ring again, an artificially
cheerful digital tune, which broke the awkward
silence.
'Hello, Beatrice! Yes, this is Elaine.' Elaine. The
old woman cringed. I didn't name her Elaine. She
remembered her daughter telling her, how an English
name was very important for 'networking', Chinese ones
being easily forgotten.

'Oh no, I can't see you for lunch today. I have to
take the ancient relic to the temple for her weird
daily prayer ritual.'

Ancient Relic. The old woman understood perfectly it
was referring to her. Her daughter always assumed that
her mother's silence meant she did not comprehend.

'Yes, I know! My car seats will be reeking of joss
sticks!'
The old woman pursed her lips tightly, her hands
gripping her plastic bag in defence.
The car curved smoothly into the temple courtyard. It
looked almost garish next to the dull sheen of the
ageing temple's roof. The old woman got out of the
back seat, and made her unhurried way to the main
hall.

Her daughter stepped out of the car in her business
suit and stilettos and reapplied her lipstick as she
made her brisk way to her mother's side.

'Ma, I'll wait outside. I have an important phone call
to make,' she said, not bothering to hide her disgust
at the pungent fumes of incense.

The old lady hobbled into the temple hall and lit a
joss stick, she knelt down solemnly and whispered her
now familiar daily prayer to the Gods.

Thank you God of the Sky, you have given my daughter
luck all these years. Everything I prayed for, you
have given her. She has everything a young woman in
this world could possibly want. She has a big house
with a swimming pool, a maid to help her, as she is
too clumsy to sew or cook.

Her love life has been blessed; she is engaged to a
rich and handsome angmoh man. Her company is now the
top financial firm and even men listen to what she
says. She lives the perfect life. You have given her
everything except happiness. I ask that the gods be
merciful to her even if she has lost her roots while
reaping the harvest of success.

What you see is not true, she is a filial daughter to
me. She gives me a room in her big house and provides
well for me. She is rude to me only because I affect
her happiness. A young woman does not want to be
hindered by her old mother. It is my fault.

The old lady prayed so hard that tears welled up in
her eyes. Finally, with her head bowed in reverence
she planted the half-burnt joss stick into an urn of smouldering
ashes.

She bowed once more.
The old woman had been praying for her daughter for
thirty-two years. When her stomach was round like a
melon, she came to the temple and prayed that it was a
son.

Then the time was ripe and the baby slipped out of her
womb, bawling and adorable with fat thighs and pink
cheeks, but unmistakably, a girl. Her husband had
kicked and punched her for producing a useless baby
who could not work or carry the family name.

Still, the woman returned to the temple with her
new-born girl tied to her waist in a sarong and prayed
that her daughter would grow up and have everything
she ever wanted. Her husband left her and she prayed
that her daughter would never have to depend on a man.

She prayed every day that her daughter would be a
great woman, the woman that she, meek and uneducated,
could never become. A woman with nenggan; the ability
to do anything she set her mind to. A woman who
commanded respect in the hearts of men. When she
opened her mouth to speak, precious pearls would fall
out and men would listen.

She will not be like me, the woman prayed as she
watched her daughter grow up and drift away from her,
speaking a language she scarcely understood. She
watched her daughter transform from a quiet girl, to
one who openly defied her, calling her laotu;
old-fashioned. She wanted her mother to be 'modern', a
word so new there was no Chinese word for it.

Now her daughter was too clever for her and the old
woman wondered why she had prayed like that. The gods
had been faithful to her persistent prayer, but the
wealth and success that poured forth so richly had
buried the girl's roots and now she stood, faceless,
with no identity, bound to the soil of her ancestors
by only a string of origami banknotes.

Her daughter had forgotten her mother's values. Her
wants were so ephemeral; that of a modern woman.
Power, Wealth, access to the best fashion boutiques,
and yet her daughter had not found true happiness. The
old woman knew that you could find happiness with much
less. When her daughter left the earth everything she
had would count for nothing. People would look to her
legacy and say that she was a great woman, but she
would be forgotten once the wind blows over, like the
ashes of burnt paper convertibles and mansions.

The old woman wished she could go back and erase all
her big hopes and prayers for her daughter; now she
had only one want: That her daughter be happy. She
looked out of the temple gate. She saw her daughter
speaking on the phone, her brow furrowed with anger
and worry. Being at the top is not good, the woman
thought, there is only one way to go from there -
down.

The old woman carefully unfolded the plastic bag and
spread out a packet of beehoon in front of the altar.
Her daughter often mocked her for worshipping
porcelain Gods. How could she pray to them so
faithfully and expect pieces of ceramic to fly to her
aid? But her daughter had her own gods too, idols of
wealth, success and power that she was enslaved to and worshipped
every day of her life.

Every day was a quest for the idols, and the idols she worshipped
counted for nothing in eternity. All the wants her daughter had would
slowly suck the life out of her and leave her, an empty soulless shell
at the altar.

The old lady watched her joss tick. The dull heat had
left a teetering grey stem that was on the danger of collapsing.
Modern woman nowadays, the old lady sighed in
resignation, as she bowed to the east one final time
to end her ritual. Modern woman nowadays want so much
that they lose their souls and wonder why they cannot
find it.

Her joss stick disintegrated into a soft grey powder.
She met her daughter outside the temple, the same look
of worry and frustration was etched on her daughter's
face. An empty expression, as if she was ploughing
through the soil of her wants looking for the one
thing that would sow the seeds of happiness.

They climbed into the convertible in silence and her
daughter drove along the highway, this time not as
fast as she had done before.

'Ma,' Bee Choo finally said. 'I don't know how to put
this. Mark and I have been talking about it and we
plan to move out of the big house. The property market
is good now, and we managed to get a buyer willing to
pay seven million for it. We decided we'd prefer a
cosier penthouse apartment instead. We found a perfect
one in Orchard Road. Once we move in to our apartment
we plan to get rid of the maid, so we can have more
space to ourselves...'

The old woman nodded knowingly.
Bee Choo swallowed hard. 'We'd get someone to come in
to do the housework and we can eat out - but once the
maid is gone, there won't be anyone to look after you.
You will be awfully lonely at home and, besides that,
the apartment is rather small. There won't be space.
We thought about it for a long time, and we decided
the best thing for you is if you moved to a Home.
There's one near Hougang - it's a Christian home, a very
nice one.'

The old woman did not raise an eyebrow. 'I've been
there, the matron is willing to take you in. It's
beautiful with gardens and lots of old people to keep
you company! I hardly have time for you, you'd be
happier there.'

'You'd be happier there, really.' Her daughter
repeated as if to affirm herself.
This time the old woman had no plastic bag of food
offerings to cling tightly to; she bit her lip and
fastened her seat belt, as if it would protect her
from a daughter who did not want her anymore. She sunk
deep into the leather seat, letting her shoulders sag,
and her fingers trace the white seat.

'Ma?' her daughter asked, searching the rear view
window for her mother. 'Is everything okay?'
What had to be done, had to be done. 'Yes,' she said
firmly, louder than she intended, 'if it will make you
happy,' she added more quietly.

'It's for you, Ma! You'll be happier there. You can
move there tomorrow, I already got the maid to pack
your things.' Elaine said triumphantly, mentally
ticking yet another item off her agenda.

'I knew everything would be fine.'

Elaine smiled widely; she felt liberated. Perhaps
getting rid of her mother would make her happier. She
had thought about it. It seemed the only hindrance in
her pursuit of happiness. She was happy now. She had
everything a modern woman ever wanted; Money, Status,
Career, Love,Power and now, Freedom, without her
mother and her old-fashioned ways to weigh her down...

Yes, she was free. Her phone buzzed urgently, she
picked it up and read the message, still beaming from
ear to ear. 'Stocks 10% increase!'

Yes, things were definitely beginning to look up for
her...

And while searching for the meaning of life in the
luminance of her hand phone screen, the old woman in
the backseat became invisible, and she did not see the tears.

Monopoleeeee

2009-07-16T19:15:00.003+08:00

at ~~rayen~~ rayson's house

so many scandal videos of yuxi and debbie in their chinese project.
after school had chemistry remedial, then went to rayson's house with marccccccc. hoiki and adolphus was there already.

I LOVE HIS BORDER COLLIE

:D :D :D :D :D

:D

2009-07-15T15:37:00.003+08:00

OM NOM NOM NOM
TASTES HEAVENLY

OMG OMG THE PINK ONE HAS CARAMEL FILLING, AND YOU KNOW WHAT THE GREEN ONE HAS?

LIME FILLINGS

OMG :D

I'M ADDICTED AND GETTING FATTER

2009-07-14T22:35:00.000+08:00

A wife was in the kitchen making a breakfast of fried eggs for her husband. Suddenly , her husband burst into the kitchen.

“Careful,” he said, “CAREFUL! Put in some more butter! Oh my gosh! You're cooking too many at once. TOO MANY! Turn them! TURN THEM NOW! We need more butter. Oh my gosh! WHERE are we going to get MORE BUTTER? They're going to STICK! Careful. CAREFUL! I said be CAREFUL! You NEVER listen to me when you're cooking! Never! Turn them! Hurry up! Are you CRAZY? Have you LOST your mind? Don't forget to salt them. You know you always forget to salt them. Use the salt! USE THE SALT! THE SALT!”

The wife stared at him. “What in the world is wrong with you? You think I don't know how to fry a couple of eggs?”

The husband calmly replied, “I just wanted to show you what it feels like when I'm driving

----

had a crazy yet tiring day today. keep looping GH songs in my head. i think i'm addicted :/

I'M GETTING FATTER AHHHHHH

NEW LOVE(S)

2009-07-13T17:06:00.001+08:00

DAMN HAPPY NOW CAUSE I BOUGHT NEW STUFFS :D

just back from T1!

School bag!

LOVE OMG :D

WOOHOOOO

2009-07-12T22:00:00.000+08:00

hop over to my facebookkkkkk!

flag day, cycling and dinner

2009-07-11T22:43:00.002+08:00

my leg like want to break already. wanted to chiong GH but in the end cycled 4 hours with Ashley, Adolphus, Hoiki, Benjamin, Chris and Raysonnnnn.

after cycling went to have dinner. Marc joined along.

wtf "ji jing" by Benjamin and Chris. i doubt it tastes anything close to ji jing though =_=

ahhh new song addiction!
your love is like a tidal wave, spinning over my head
drowning me in your promises, better left unsaid
you're the right kind of sinner, to release my inner fantasy
the invincible winner, the one you're born to be

you're a, heart breaker. dream maker.
love taker.
don't you mess around with me.

I WANT TO BREAK UP!

2009-07-10T17:58:00.002+08:00

I'M BREAKING UP WITH YOU >:(

oops

2009-07-10T15:55:00.002+08:00

sorry for not blogging in ages. was busy with something.

kind of lost track of time. can't remember what did i do on what day, so i only remembered what i did. Go wish Adolphus happy birthday when he got quarantined, pass him his presents at his house with Hoiki and Marc, then had lunch. Went to Ashley's house to play. Went to Marc's house to chiong guitar hero.

going to jog laterrrrrrz

Chinese project, PP, GHWT, EP.. and hand pain

2009-07-06T23:18:00.004+08:00

project at Changi beach yesterday morning. i'm starting to get scared of that place. but you know what, that place has KITTENS :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D

CAN YOU SEE ITTTTT

CAN YOU SEE IT? OMG IT'S STANDING AND PLAYING WITH THE PLANT :D :D :D <3

after project went to parkway with Marc and Yuxi, then went to Marc's house chiong guitar hero. omg omg omg drums are loveeeeeeee

played till quite late then went home in the rain.

today went to Adolphus's house early in the morning with Ashley!
HAPPPPPPPPPY BIRTHDAY IN 24 MINUTES ADOLPHUS.
then after chinese project, went to Loyang Point with Ashley and loitered all around, looking for weird and unique stuff to use in school. Loyang point also can walk till 1.5 hours like that haha. Then went to meet with Marc, Yuxi, Debbie, Bernadette and Junming for guitar hero. and yesss i started playing expert.

so after chionging B.Y.O.B. and Damnit on expert, my two hands are dying. i couldn't bathe in peace, can't do homework in peace, can't eat in peace and many other stuffs. it's still hurting like crap. =_=

sunburnt, knee pain and chinese project.

2009-07-04T19:29:00.004+08:00

met with Ashley, Benjamin and Chris (ABC LOL) at Changi beach early in the morning to cycle. Didn't touch the bike for 8 years so i couldn't cycle at first but got better after a few minutes.

When cycling back from halfway to east coast to Changi beach, i went down a slope and couldn't change gears and brake so i fell behind one SAF car. heng never fly and hit their car or something. they look damn intimidating with their vests and sunglasses and came out asking if i was okay. ~_~

pink bell =_=

so after cycling for 4 hours, Adolphus and Sean came to do chinese project, while Benjamin and Chris went home. After that, went to Ashley's house.

Then a few hours later i happily went home and removed my watch, and to my horror

OH MY GOD I BECOME TWO COLORS LA. MY ARM ALSO, MY THIGHS ALSO, MY FOOT ALSO.

thank god i didn't wear much bangles on the other hand. ~_~

dinnnnnner!

2009-07-03T21:49:00.001+08:00

omg omg omg had subway for dinner. craving for more food now. shit.

2009-07-01T23:54:00.001+08:00

super cute hahahaha

dozing off, social studies, seating arrangement

2009-07-01T20:38:00.001+08:00

slept at 2am on sunday
2am on monday
1.30am on tuesday
now, the aftermath is here to kill me.

PIMPLE AND EYE CIRCLEZXZXZ OH MAI GODDDDD

so hopefully i will shut the computer at like 9.45pm, brush teeth wash face and sleep zhun zhun at 10pm which i did during sec 1.

omg social studies damn paiseh.
and new seating arrangementttttt. kns at the corner again. worse in front again. worst no fan again. grrrrr.

doing the 3rd remake of the chinese project this saturday cause our shitty 30minute rush work was crap, unrealistic, stupid scripts, very no link and our clothes don't match our roles.

everybody in our group now has a long slim legs, a perfect figure and boobs :>
marc, censored, hoiki, caleb, me
ashley, debbie, amanda, adolphus, bernadette

OMG

2009-06-29T22:47:00.004+08:00

AHHHHH DOUBLE EYELID STICKERS WORK MIRACLES SIA! :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D!! *pull hair out*

grr i can't wash away the marker ink on my hand

SNEAKKKKKK PREVIEW OF SS MV :D

insane first day of school

2009-06-29T17:47:00.003+08:00

I AM PLEETY!

my palm looks long.

today was the first day of school! planned to wake up at 5.30 and reach school at 6.30 to chiong biology, but then i kept snoozing my alarm till it was 6. Lugged the guitar on one shoulder, my heavy bag on the other, right hand supporting the guitar and left hand holding the maths project thing. reached side gate, the person told us to tell them if we're sick, even if it's like a very very slight flu or something, so i told him i have slight runny nose and cough. at first i thought they going to send me home so i was secretly happy, but then they told me to take temperature, sit down at the atrium for half an hour then take temperature again. nearly missed talking the quote of the week. anyway i was like damn nervous, pronounce frustrated as prustrated, more as move. =_= Mrs Oh wanted to take a picture of me cause my face was red and my hands was shaking very badly.

then, i was told to wear the mask for the whole day.

only had Maths lessons, then slacked throughout the day and suddenly tore out the eyes from a paper crane that's folded from a magazine advertisement. then tadaaaaa

some freaky looking stuff with smudged lipstick

after school lugged the guitar to Marc's house to return it to him with Hoiki and had lunch. THIS TIME I NEVER BURN MY WALLET KAY.

QUOTE OF THE WEEEEEK

2009-06-29T01:13:00.003+08:00

last day it's going to be with me

gogo beeyan. quote of the week!

i don't know why am i online at this hour since school reopens tomorrow, but i'm semi excited that school's reopening and i can see everybody again, yet i'm semi sad cause the holidays were kind of "too short" and i didn't bake, i didn't slim down y_y, i didn't study, i didn't do most of the things i planned to do la!

transformersxzxzx

2009-06-28T00:48:00.002+08:00

met up with Marc at T1 for subway, but then decided to go Plaza sing to eat instead since there's no place to sit. Met with Zuhao for KFC but only Marc ate. Then met with Ashley.

Loitered around the top floor, keep walking around in circles and circles while waiting for the movie to start, then finally went in. Transformers was okay la. Didn't watch the first one so i didn't know what was happening. Only know here boom boom, there boom boom, a bit of robot violence, a bit of humour.

~_~ remake of chinese project tomorrow! don't know whether i should go to school on monday. :/

edit: JUST SAW OUR SS VIDEO. IT IS DAMN BLOODY FUNNY SIA.

HAHA.

2009-06-27T00:18:00.000+08:00

FUCKKKKK YOU.
I HATEEEEE YOU.
So what if i'm vulgar, bitch?

ANGELA

2009-06-26T22:08:00.002+08:00

no band :<

means no angelaaaa

no paulllll
no MK :<

newurbanmale

2009-06-26T17:37:00.001+08:00

MY THIRD FOOTWEAR, MY SECOND NUM :D

now my house got three pairs of this slippers, size 35/36, 37/38 and 39/40. ~_~

bitches and bastards;

2009-06-26T11:20:00.001+08:00

tell me whats harder now, trusting a complete bitch who betrayed you or a total stranger?

changi beach and ashley's

2009-06-25T23:46:00.001+08:00

met at Ashley's. Sean was very very lateeeeeeeee.

headed for lunch at loyang point, then went to Changi beach for project!

did my scene first so after that i sat at one spot to look after belongings, shouted "WELCOME TO SINGAPOREEEEE" to aeroplanes and took pictures.

f

then after half an hour of filming there, went back to ashley's to take the remaining scenes.

finally finished everything two hours later. :D

I WANT TO LIVE IN THIS KIND OF HOUSES :D

gaa throat got worse.
i smell like a dog.
i think i'm balding.
i want to get well like now.

arghhh

2009-06-24T10:42:00.003+08:00

woke up by three things.

1. adolphus's sms
2. mdm tan's call
3. damned sore throat

1 and 2 were about the camp being cancelled. f- $#%#$&$^^$#%#.

i can't breathe from my nose, need to breath through mouth. my throats dry and itchy cause i slept with mouth open to breathe. then when my nose finally cleared and i can breathe through it and finally close my mouth, the sneezing kicks in and blocks my damn nose again. grrrrr.

if i'm still sick on sat, i think i don't want go to spread to you all liao.

ELLE VEEEEE

2009-06-23T22:33:00.001+08:00

CUTE ANOT YOU TELL ME.

blocked nose, headache, feel damn stuffy. y__y
i don't have any timeeeeeeeeee. going to sleep/play pokemon soon.

臭男人!臭男人!臭男人!臭男人!臭男人!

runny nose

2009-06-23T12:03:00.004+08:00

my nose keep running y__y

2 more projects to go, 1 day to chiong it.

i want to live in a shophouse with my husband!

i think it's time to wear a maskkkkkk, maybe you have forgotten sarssssss

2009-06-22T12:24:00.001+08:00

Woke up and found my inbox filled with

"You may log on to www.channelnewsasia.com/singapore/index.htm and vote for extend holidays. At the bottom left hand corner. Forward to your friends and ask them to vote. Thanks."

and

"Ladies and gentlemen, please go to Channelnewsasia.com/singapore/index.htm. Go there to vote for school closure!!! Due to the H1N1.... FORWARD TO EVERYBODY NOW!!! SPREAD THE WORD TO MAKE THIS HAPPEN....."

decided to wait till i come back from junior band then do my maths project.

:D

2009-06-22T01:27:00.003+08:00

You will be able to make money through your effort.

AND I CANNOT BELIEVE IT. I NEARLY YI SE TWICE, THEN FINALLY YI SE AT THE LAST ROUND :D :D :D

didn't manage to finish physics project cause i couldn't think of anything, so i did only 3/4 of the maths project. ~_~ will finish it tomorrow morning, spend the afternoon at junior band, then evening trying to think of physics project.

SS PROJECTTTT!

2009-06-20T22:34:00.000+08:00

had band in the morning. then Adolphus and Hoiki went to Tampines Mart to have lunch while i go home to bathe and change, then went to Hoiki's house for SS project. played around (and record the song) in lounge until Hoiki's mother came to save the day by activating the lift for us.

everybody looks slutty and scary so i censored them away

had KFC for lunch. i'm never going to eat any fast food for the next two months to repend. y_y finished all the recording of the spastic scenes in the MV and went for dinner with Adolphus, Hoiki and Marc at CS.

wa sian the pepper lunch thing burnt my wallet and a big piece of the skin of it melted away and is peeling off. my two week old baby y__y...

tomorrow is a day where i am going to complete the maths project and physics project so i can slowly finish off the chinese project, then slack till school reopens. hope that they extend the holiday by one week cause of H1N1 =_=

GUITAR :D

2009-06-19T22:38:00.001+08:00

TODAY IS A GUITAR-ISH DAY!
GUITAR HERO AND A REAL GUITAR WEEEEEEEEEE

went for dentist in the morning. thought it will be another traumatizing visit cause i cried for all my previous dentist visits. was shaking when the dentist was talking to vincent. then in the end, she say my gums healthy, just need to polish my teeth. and she said that my teeth natural colour is yellowish white. SO DISGUSTING RIGHT Y_Y

then met with A, HK, M, D, B for SS project. danced at the d-covery science corner thing and did stupid things. then had lunch, M went for choir, D and B went home, A and i went to HK's house.

yeh guitar heroooooo

YEH REAL GUITARRRRRR. THANKS MARC :D:D:D:D

AH LA LA LA, AH LA LA LA LARFEEE CHIUUUUU

1D BBQ

2009-06-18T00:37:00.000+08:00

1D BBQ at pasir ris park todayyyyyy :D :D :D super funny. so sorry for the unforeseen circumstances like breaking the lighter and not knowing how to use a match stick =_= and also not having enough charcoal and fire starter, and the large large large amount of chicken wings that made me very scared of chickens now. very sorry and hope you enjoyed the bbq >_>

met with Junhan and Junming at the pit at 5. Slacked and talk nonesense, then Hoiki and Debbie came. So went to the beach to play since it's more cooling there, and the wire mesh have not arrived yet.

Hoiki

Debbie (white), Hoiki (brown), me :D

*___* love this picture

Left to right, Debbie, me, Hoiki, and I don't know what is that white thing

yehhhhhhhhhhh

then saw Marc and Felicia and Junhan and Debbie walking from the distance so Hoiki and i went to help out. realised that papayas don't work. started the fire and the bbq!

sorry i broke the lighter. >_> used matches and set up the fire, kope a bottle of drink for Hoiki, Felicia and me, then keep BBQ-ing the food. ran out of charcoal so went around asking people whether can buy some charcoal from them. the lady at the neighbouring pit superrrrrr kind but scarily kind. so bought some charcoal from her and continued BBQ-ing. halfway went to fetch Peikheng with Marc and Hoiki and wash hands at downtown east with soap.

thanks a lot to

Junhan
Junming
Hoiki
Debbie
Genevieve Quek
Remus
Jinhui
Sheryl
Caleb
Glen
Cally
Jacqueline
Delia
Amanda
Felicia
Marc
Peikheng
Jianyou
Joshua
Jorim
Taikhoom
Shaheed
Genevieve Gan
(and others who came but i forgotten to include your name inside)

thanks a lottttt for coming! :D

Happy (belated) birthday Jorim!

thanks Marc and Peikheng for staying with me until my family came.

wa my family come liao right, FINALLY NO MORE CHICKEN SIA. got lala, got sambal sotong, crab stick, black pepper fish fillet, pork, otah . eat until damn shiok. ~_~ now damn full. i smell like BBQ now. going to bathe after i finish this post.

tadaaaaaaaa

BBQ

2009-06-16T20:17:00.000+08:00

after many sms during band from junhan asking for help, being the nice girl i was, i helped book the bbq pit and marinate the chicken. kns he became one head taller than me already.

1D (2007) BBQ OUTING
VENUE: PASIR RIS PARK PIT 5
DATE: 17 JUNE 2009 *TOMORROW
PRICE: WILL CALCULATE TOMORROW :D
1D PEOPLE ALL BETTER COME K.

anyway, ANGELA CAME FOR BAND TODAY :D :D :D

hopefully tomorrow there will be many pictures and class bonding :D :D :D

hmm

2009-06-16T12:03:00.001+08:00

a post before i go for band.

While a man was polishing his new car, his 4 yr old son picked up stone and scratched lines on the side of the car. In anger, the man took the child's hand and hit it many times; not realizing he was using a wrench.

At the hospital, the child lost all his fingers due to multiple fractures. When the child saw his father.....with painful eyes he asked, 'Dad when will my fingers grow back?' The man was so hurt and speechless; he went back to his car and kicked it a lot of times.

Devastated by his own actions......sitting in front of that car he looked
at the scratches; the child had written 'LOVE YOU DAD'.

The next day that man committed suicide. . .

Anger and Love have no limits; choose the latter to have a beautiful,
lovely life..... Things are to be used and people are to be loved,

But the problem in today's world is that, People are used and things are
loved... During this year, let's be careful to keep this thought in mind:
Things are to be used, but People are to be loved ...
Be yourself....This is the only day we HAVE.

credits: EDMW

outing and outing!

2009-06-15T20:36:00.003+08:00

PPF OUTING!

met aiai and timmo at pasir ris and travelled to vivo!

from right to left: ben, xantos, timmo, hidayah, me, trisha

top from left to right: timmo, iceruff, xantos
bottom from left to right: hidayah, me, trisha, jianhong, ben
eh wth ben and jh =.=

timmo, iceruff, xantos
ben, hidayah, me, trisha, jianhong

had fortune session which is like super accurate. can imagine ben sitting outside temple telling other people's fortune liao. then slacked at vivo rooftop, laughing and watching ben dance to the restaurant.

-----------------------

had junior band, did ss project (a bit) then dinner with A, HK and M!

pastamania! now damn full

after that walked around tampines1 (i'm getting sick of that place ~_~)

oh yea. played GUESS THAT POKEMON! with A and HK in class while waiting to lock band room. wth they literally are siao people. i only got 4 point they like 20 over =_= i'm going to study pokedex and win you two next time

i want to go bugissssssss :(

homemade skirts!

2009-06-12T17:38:00.001+08:00

mummy made homemade skirts and is going to start a mini business! :D

can't wait till sunday. VERY LONG NEVER SEE TRISHA AND BENJAMIN ALREADY!

sigh

2009-06-12T00:28:00.004+08:00

i really should avoid overspending. (whats with the love one)

last last week $30 cotton on, $26 accessories
last week $40 cotton on, $10 accessories, $5 eyelash curler

this week $33 wallet, $15 F21 accessories

today. boyfriend blazer $27

sub total: $186 AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH *pull out hair*

fringe!

2009-06-10T20:52:00.000+08:00

1D BBQ is on 13th June!

lazy to organize pictures. so i will summarize everything.

CORKBOARD IS LOVE; GYAKUTEN KENJI IS LOVE x2; CARAMEL CORN IS LOVE; I HAD MY FRINGE CUT!

done.

hohoho

2009-06-10T00:38:00.001+08:00

vivocity with zeh, kor and mei. i mean biological ones, not those gan-s that people have.

I BOUGHT A WALLET AND I AM NOW VERY HAPPY! but my wallet doesn't have any money to put inside, so i had to fill it up with coins and neoprints and weird stuffs. F21 to buy bracelets, then window shopped for awhile. Carl's Jr for lunch/dinner, then went to Daiso then went home.

pictures timeeeeee

bracelets from F21

pop out one pig.

this pig is multitalented and is called the smart pig.

can act cute

can dig nose

can flick the pisai away also

can dig ear also okay.

and nowwww MY NEW WALLET :D:D:D:D:D!!

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥!!!

spam cards and pictures

spam neoprints and other stuffs inside one of the compartments if not the wallet very empty.
CAN YOU SPOT YOURSELF? :O

i don't know why but i like corkboards this much. putting one on section cupboard again ~_~

/end picture spam

LESSONS TOMORROW AGAIN! but A's away at LTC so nobody disturb me, and nobody to disturb except A.

shopping! (again)

2009-06-08T20:49:00.003+08:00

SHIT I'M TURNING INTO A COTTON ON FREAK

mahjong yesterday after online shopping with mummy. walau always lose money one lor..

A maths and Biology today. A don't want let me take picture so i took a picture of the other A. home, change, SHOPPPPPPPPPING! cotton on cotton on cotton on cotton on cotton on cotton on cotton on cotton on cotton on cotton on cotton on cotton on cotton on cotton on cotton on cotton on cotton on cotton on cotton on cotton on cotton on! i just love stepping into cotton on and smelling the fresh smell of sales items. bought two skirts and a polo the other day, bought spaghetti shirt, two skirts and a short today.

and most importantly, I BROKE MY RECORD OF NOT WEARING DRESSES IN 7486451568 YEARS! wore a black dress to shop today. went to buy rubber band, hair clip, earring, handphone strap. then i went to have my virgin order at subway. i was seriously scared of the woman serving me even though she doesn't look fierce at all y_y

nownownownow, pictures for all! one picture is equilvalent to 1000 words so this is 6 thousand words more!

in order of appearance, waiting for 4th mahjong player; A; subway; subway; subway; COTTON ON!

shit the pictures of subway is making me crave for more subway. spent over $150 in a few days. vivocity tomorrow for more great singapore sales and forever21!

learn learn learn

2009-06-07T20:40:00.004+08:00

tanbeeyan wants to learn a guitar and is looking for kind people to lend her one <:)

today is the first time my mummy used the computer. so i spent the whole morning and afternoon online shopping with her LOL. another great reason of why i'm at this size. need need need need need to go vivo for F21 for...

and

now i know why i'm broke.

please don't cancel the camp.

unknowningly

2009-06-06T20:35:00.004+08:00

wa. so fast then i realised that i have been blogging for more than 1 and a half years.

something to beautify the post.

holidays not like a holiday sigh. i'm busier during holidays than during school days lor. lessons, 4 projects, CCA. Tests on first week. sigh y_y

so far my holiday is..

Monday - Chinese, social studies, junior band. home at 7pm.
Tuesday - Chinese, chemistry, band. home at 8pm
Wednesday - English, chinese, open band store. home at 4.30pm
Thursday - English , Biology, band, T1 with Adolphus and Marc. home at 9pm
Friday - Chemistry, A maths. HOME AT 1.30PM weeee :D
Saturday - Footdrills, band, mahjong.

I. WANT. TO. GO. SHOPPING. TOMORROW.

i wish my dreams could be like a dandelion.
blown away to a faraway place to be fulfilled and help others have dreams too.

go away

2009-06-05T20:21:00.001+08:00

exit if you don't like vulgarities now.

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life just has to have fuckers inside to ruin it.

ahahha

2009-06-04T22:05:00.000+08:00

PREGNANT 3 MONTHS LIAO!

quizxzxz

2009-06-03T16:33:00.001+08:00

i like doing quizzes.

( shout hip hip hurray! )
( 66 odd questions quiz )
( raise your arms up highhhhhh! <3 )

( SHOUT IT OUT LOUD! )

they link to my livejournal.

http://singaporeseen.stomp.com.sg/singaporeseen/viewContent.jsp?id=72306
grrr. dog breeders.

paul

2009-06-01T20:08:00.003+08:00

life sucks without you paul.

meet paul's super neat table! got mug some more k.
omgomgomg tomorrow's band with paul and angela again! :D :D :D i miss those times a lot. can sing him the "i will follow paul" song and dance nobody to him.

A sucks lor.
can't even switch on an air con. can't keep quiet for 1 minute. can't stop disturbing people.
YOU OWE A AND ME BUBBLE TEA OKAY.

empty wallet

2009-05-31T22:31:00.004+08:00

an empty wallet, a happy lady.

bought two skirts, one polo tee, two necklaces and an eyelash curler. happy went home to find out that one of the skirts i bought was wrong size Y_Y so had to give it to my sister.

TANBEEYAN MUST SLIM DOWN AND BECOME A DEMURE SOPHISTICATED WOMAN DURING THIS HOLIDAY! CLEAR ALL MY PIMPLES! BUY MORE SKIRTS!

good luck paul.

sigh

2009-05-31T16:34:00.002+08:00

i can't believe i spent my sunday afternoon trying to fold double eyelids. off to shop the sunday night away at T1 y_y

would you?

2009-05-31T00:28:00.002+08:00

If i were blue, would you be there for me
and whisper in my ears that's okay
would you stand by me? let me hold you tight
and say you love me one more time

If i feel good, would you slow dance with me
and touch my lips with tender loving care
would you die for me? would you run with me
and never look back?

Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one
to take my breath away?

Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one
to take my breath away?

Would you be there?

If i am away, would you still think of me
and whished that you could hold me now
Would you die for me, would you run with me
All the way?

Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one
to take my breath away?

Would you be there to save my soul tonight?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you always be there
to kiss my pain away?

Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one
to take my breath away?

Would you be there to save my soul tonight?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be there
to kiss my pain away?

Would you be there? for me?